So I'm really into service. I'm also really into self-deprecating. And sometimes my two hobbies don't mix.
The other day I was delivering a meal to a sick friend. She immediately commences my least favorite part: the thank you.
I never know just what to do with The Thank You. It's embarrassing. It's awkward. I have nowhere to look. So generally I just do what I do best: run myself down.
"Oh, it was nothing! Nothing at all! I was cooking this for my family anyway! I just doubled it! It was just a crockpot meal! In fact, I just ripped open a package from Costco and heated it up! Really, truly, madly, deeply NO BIG DEAL!"
Translation: You're really not worth the effort, and I'm really not worth The Thank You.
Bad Becky. Bad bad bad.
Why can't I say, "You're welcome! I wish I could do more."
"I love you - of course I'll bring you dinner."
"You're my friend - serving you is a pleasure."
Or better yet - maybe I should just stick to anonymous stuff?
I annoy myself sometimes.